To My son Elijah Daniel Wagner. I am writing to you because I cannot be there right now. It is complicated and it is my fault. Next week you will be having your first birthday and I will be forced to miss it.
I hope you will forgive me. I am working hard to make the changes in my heart that will let me be part of mom and your life again. This is not your fault. You are a great son and I am proud of you. I love you and you mom very much. I have been pretty sick with something called anger, but I getting help. It will be a year before I can come home. I am praying for you and mom every day, and God is listening.
I love you very much Elijah.
